WOW (venting moments)

You know when you have been raised to be loyal to your family and to teach others around you that they are your family and you love them regardless of what happens or what has been said...Well I am here to tell you other wise, yes you love your family and you always will but when you help them and when you stand up for them to others who are cruel behind their backs and then they turn from you and treat you like the scum of the earth I say they should have a lesson or two taught to them in their life time, and yes I know they will get what they deserve eventually but I hate to watch people coast through their lives and treat others so poorly and act like they are so much better than everyone else and point their fingers at you like you are the one who is at fault for all the bad in their lives. It hurts me to realize that I am loyal to a fault, I try my best to make everyone happy even it brings me down, I make my own bad choices I realize but it gives me no excuse to look at others and judge what they say or do and demean them in front of others. All in all to the end of my moment of frustration I guess I will never learn to stand for what I truly believe when my own family is standing in the way, I will just let them do what they will anymore and I now need to work on what I have come to believe is my own truth I am done going to people for things and having pity thrown at me, I will vent to my blog and that is it no more human minds just my own to make my own decisions, and I guess in a way this makes me a hypocrite where as I am going to college for psychology but oh well in my own eyes I see this as a tool for me to heal on the inside a process no other will help me with or even begin to know what it is like. Everyone is taught the same but learns in their own way you can never expect for them to know it the same as what you do. I sit here watching my princess sleep during her nap and wonder what it will be like in ten years when she will be twelve and if the right raising was done, her family loves her so much and I love her so much all I want is the best for her but is that a detriment to her situation? I will never know till the time comes. I have calmed down now *laughs to self silently* and my best bet is it is time for me to go make a snack for when the princess wakes up *smiles* one thing learned today is no one can help you but your self, opinions are graciously accepted but not always followed, listen to your self before you listen to those who don't really know what is going on in your heart and your mind.